Memoir - Of A Snail -2024-

People ask me if I’m lonely. I tell them: lonely is just a word for people who haven’t learned to listen to the quiet. A snail’s memoir isn’t loud. It’s a wet, shining line on a dark pavement. And if you follow it long enough—past the fish-and-chips shop, past the caravan, past the dead clown and the frozen poodle—you’ll find someone tapping their ring on a glass jar, smiling.

And then, a key. A small, tarnished key. Memoir of a Snail -2024-

We married in a registry office. He wore a polka-dot bow tie. I wore a snail brooch Gilbert had sent me. Ken and I moved into his caravan, parked on a vacant lot next to a fish-and-chips shop. We had no children. We had snails. Kenneth (the snail, not the husband) was our first. Ken the husband would read aloud to them from The Hobbit . “They’re listening,” he’d say. “Slowly.” Ken died on a Tuesday. Aneurysm. He was trying to fix a leak in the caravan roof during a heatwave. I found him face-down in a puddle of his own lemonade. The funeral was me, a priest who’d never met him, and the snails. I didn’t cry. I just tapped my ring. People ask me if I’m lonely

Tap. Tap. Tap.

My mother, a gentle hoarder of teabags and sympathy cards, died in a department store escalator accident when we were seven. My father, a one-armed magician (lost the arm to a pet crocodile in Alice Springs), drank himself into a quiet coma by the time we were nine. Gilbert and I were sent to live with a woman named Phyliss, a chain-smoking ex-trapeze artist who kept her dead poodle, François, in the freezer. “He’s just resting,” she’d say, patting the icebox. It’s a wet, shining line on a dark pavement