I didn't run to her. I gave it a month. I told myself it was respect. But really, it was cowardice. Then I saw her post on Instagram: a picture of a half-finished phoenix tattoo on a blank canvas, the caption: "Some things have to burn before they can fly."
She replied in three seconds. "You have no idea." My friend-s Girlfriend Becomes My Girlfriend. -...
For six months, I was a ghost in my own friendship. I’d go to their apartment for dinner. Mark would grill burgers and talk about his new podcast idea (it was about the history of the paperclip). Sasha would watch him, her smile a patient, tired thing. She’d catch my eye across the table, and we’d share a silent, unspoken language: Can you believe this guy? But beneath that was another, more dangerous whisper: Why isn’t it you? I didn't run to her
"I've been seeing her."
We met at a dive bar with sticky floors and good jukeboxes. We didn't talk about Mark. We talked about the books we lied about reading, the cities we wanted to disappear into, the fear of being ordinary. She laughed at my jokes—real ones, not puns—and when she touched my hand to make a point about the elasticity of skin for tattoos, a current went through me that had nothing to do with static. But really, it was cowardice